Saturday, September 11, 2010

Life is definitely is getting very busy since I have being posted to my unit which is engineer. Plenty of things to do and weekdays under the chilling sunlight have apparently mutate my brain cells into dump cells.

I have decide to focus uploading my works on facebook. So if you are interested to follow up my work. Just add me at ruinlord@hotmail.com in facebook.

Freedom ripped off. Taking physical and mental stress, I do not know how much I can bear. Social, Economic, knowledge and skills factors are being ripped off from me. Everything just turn more military. However I know this will be over sooner or later.

Looking on the bright side. I still have weekend with my friends and family =)

What a life I`m enjoying now in unit life. Rofl!!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

What to do if you are out of idea?

- Read
- Look
- Watch


If you aint getting any idea. Then go to sleep.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Go Spain!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

I`m gonna reduce the size of the sun by ten time. Singapore will snow and there wont be any more durian!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Is it worth to break up a relationship

Recently get to hear some break up stories from my friends. Complicated issue which is just too hard for me to describe. Well, break up is common issue no doubt. Couldnt really care that much but I think for those couple who had manage to stay together for like at least one and a half years should seriously think twice before having the mind of break up.

If you are young, you do have the thought of going for someone else better than your current relationship mate. Some people think and execute it. No hard feeling but everyone want a better future for themselves. It can be cruel and cold but we have to experience. Life is an uncontrolled event but we can control the situation by handling it.

"Shrug"

Is it worth to break up a relationship when both party are still in good term? There are days when life happen to be its` lowest but how about those happy days?

"Hmmmm"

After each events that happen through our story. We will be better than ever.
A dream never too far

Monday, July 5, 2010

The 1 month story

I wont betray myself any further. Life could be cruel but I`m going to take it down along with me so least I know I`m still alive. Digging out the pain that being buried for months brighten me up for I know it`s still there.

Sorry to the any that my words cause disappointment. Dont you think a tea that went cold is still nice to drink?

Nothing matter now because I am loving myself well!

I finally POP!

The memories of this 19 weeks BMT at tekong is an unforgettable one. The pain and joy in the training with others let me become stronger than I am. I proud that I had finish the bmt and now I`m looking forward for the posting.

Life is an uncontrolled event but we learn how to handle it!

Tick tick the seconds pass as I lied on the ground in the bunk, it was around 2pm and everyone was in high spirit. Excited but my eyes are closing off after the area cleaning. It wasnt long before droplets of rain hit high on the ground. It got to be wet program I guess. As the time pass, everyone went to visit each other bunk to congratulate the person whom they respect and admire. Words are being express out by hug and shaking hand with a big simile. It was indeed a happy day for Bronco warrior on 2nd july.

Before long, my watch show me 4pm and the commanders call out to everyone to pack up and get ready to proceed to the parade square where many parents are excited to see their own son who finish their bmt. I hold on to my wife for one last in tekong and saying; Farewell my wife, I`m going to find a real one out there! Let just hope you will get one responsible husband after my care.

Sgt Edwin lead platoon 1 through blocks by blocks under the shelter straight toward the parade square. We pass by eagle and other companies. This place had carve itself deep in my memories and a place where I learnt.

Music can heard from a distance away at the HQ. I know I`m going home, very very soon. recruits falling in files and making full use of the remaining times by joining in conversation to strengthen the bond. Not long later, we are being lead to the back of the audience seat where we perform our BMTC roar and everything end short and sweet.

Mom brought camera which was spoilt on the spot itself but thank to Jason. I managed to have a shot with my parent. We rush our way to the terminal and left tekong. I couldnt take any photos to keep it as part of my memories.

As I left SFT, I look back for one last time wondering will I get to visit again which I hope it wont happen. Good bye BMT LIFE!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Overshot

Sunday, May 23, 2010

1 year later

I saw her again for 5 seconds before I move off.

This is very motivating for me before my field camp. x)

Everyone has been saying how tough and tiring field camp be. I`m feeling worry for my poor physical condition to complete the training but what I see today wash away my worry. I will remind myself again and again every night in this field camp that I will survive!!

Never ever have I been so happy to book in.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

9th week in bmt

So finally I spend 9 weeks in Bmt. I still remember the day when my family and friends accompany me to Puala Tekong which is also name as the happy island. Well, not exactly a happy island.

Spending confinement weeks and getting culture shock which almost everyone experience. It could be positive or negative feeling. No doubt for me was an exciting one. Getting into healthy habit or sleeping and waking up and healthy diet was one thing I really like it.

The training was quite alright but the weather is unbearable at times in the noon. It`s kinda disappointing whenever you are feeling high but your body is giving your problems. One of the things that alway motivate you is your buddy and army friends by your side.

The discipline there is strict and somehow it seen my company have a culture of confining people. I have 2 and I just have to suck thumb and forget it. I couldnt feel any better ever since I got 2 confinement within the same week.

Despite the punishment, I cannot think negative although I am now because I still got another 9 weeks to go. I take everything as an experience in way of life. It`s like preparing us mentally and physically. It`s tough and exciting in bmt but I wonder will I really get to endure till pop. =O


No pain no gain

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Going in Puala Tekong as an recuit wasnt fun and in fact it is more tough I can imagine. Every single day pass with determination and the love to strive for myself. The training and making friends with fellow bunk mates as well as company mates happen through training etc; running together under the hot sun at the Red Track encouraging each other.

Brain cell drying up along with the days in the camp. Things forgotten and so are some people. Everyday was a tough one. I alway tell myself to think positive at all time even my physical is struggling. Falling sick and leg injury was part of the experience during training.

What I like about tekong is the sound of nature and the sea view. The cloud is just fantastic, you can look afar without any tall building blocking it. Weird and interesting shape that float pass my head. Changing color from pink to orange during the morning and evening. The best thing not to miss indeed.

Ever since last year, few questions hide under the shadow of my past. It wasnt easy to solve the problems, in fact it couldnt be solve. Few days ago, in the early morning watching the blossom of the tree. I told myself.


" Somewhere only we know'

Saturday, March 13, 2010

當愛已成往事 (林憶蓮+李宗盛)




I got this song from Hui wen last year at Nuffnang office. The album consist quite a number of oldies songs. So I happen to listen to this song 當愛已成往事 by(林憶蓮+李宗盛).

It wasnt appealing to me first few times, I guess I alway in the middle of game while listening to it. It finally bring my attention during my way home at MRT.

I check it out at youtube. The lyric was really amazing to me. The song was create during 1993. Pretty old but given the song rating at that year, I believe it is one of the legend.

In my view; the lyric and the video message is contain 2 part. 1st part is from the female side that " You have to understand life will be the same without me " while from the male side is " I need you to be part of my life " Though both message contradict each other. It`s hint that the male is emotional and isnt willingly to give up and move on.

I agree the points from the song.
- life still must go on no matter what
- Let not speak of the past
- love is really addictive and hard to let go
- People dream of being together with the one they love but in reality, it`s hopeless
- it`s not easy have both parties to have good solution when it come to break up
- If today we go on our way, tomorrow let work for our own future.


Both of them are attached and married at 1998 but not long later they divorce at 2004.

You can out the both of their profile: Sandy lam & Jonathan lee


Personally this song broaden my thinking about life.

Friday, March 12, 2010

2 weeks confinement

After spending 2 week in Tekong to adapt to army life. I learnt the culture about army. The need to take pride in NS also grow as I attend lecture the need for NS.

It`s not easy to adapt to army life especially to those who tend to sleep very late and wake up at weee hour. Just imagine you have to wake up up around 5am everyday. Down your brain, you will be screaming away to sleep more.

There plenty of funny things and even me myself also doing funny things. Of course, the most important part is about discipline. Quite a number of lessons are learnt by the way, I dun like it but I think that the most effective way.

My bulk mates are nice people. My bed buddy dun really talk to me because I alway irritate him! <3 He help me alot, the only thing I can do is to train myself up x)

Life in Tekong are tiring but fun and definitely when it come to OCPT. When OC lead the PT, my ball just shrink but after finishing the PT. I just feel the achievement and I tell myself that I will train hard to be fit like him/ X>

That all about life in Tekong. 17 weeks more to go!


Have you being disappointment to see something you do not want? You will feel like punching anything that nearby in that spite second?

I think this is life. Life is unpredictable, learn to accept and continue to progress. Best wishes~! <3

I will need to do 200 sit up , push up and crunches......

Thursday, February 25, 2010

The time to serve our Country has come

The Author of this blog will be enlisted on 25th feb at Puala Tekong as part of the National service program.

He will like to thank you all readers who had once supported his blog.

He will try to update once a while although he know that
sharing of photos will be less than ever...


He wish all the best to everyone...

even to those live under the shadow of misery.....

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

23th Feb Gathering

Well, this time round. Nobody bring any camera along. It was just a simple and sweet gathering at teckwhye coffeeshop blk145.

I didnt get to contact much with Jian long group thus I know I`m outdated along with their activities. It bring me thrill and excitment when I reach the coffeeshop because I finally get to see my own family members. Sarah , Jason and even Jereld the brother I really love the most to appear in my eye. I never expect to see either both Jason or Jereld. It kinda bring me back to the secondary school day how I will be spending my effort to care for them behind the scene. Sometime when I see them and their achievement really brighten me alot. Alot that I am very proud of them even though everyone is still too young to say out anything but I know I can trust their judgment in life.


Jian long and Winnie is going pretty well at this stage. It will left the test of faith when Jian long go in NS before everyone can see clearly their fate. Since NS alone bring alot of breakup for couple. The chat was more of everyone recent activities and their further planning. Jereld sign on for NIE teaching course under physical education. Si han went oversea Outward bound as part time instructor and his experience of climbing mountain alone for 2 day 1 night surprise everyone and everyone was quite interested about it. Jia cheng brought up the topic of going oversea together at Thailand. Of course I wont be able to go but only get to support the idea of going oversea as part of exposure and fun!.

Jason left early and he didnt talk much. The dinner was last an hour plus near two. The memory of being with them during the secondary school is still fresh and then you realize it`s been 3years plus already. I guess everyone still love the olden day even though we still have to move forward.

If you ask me have I ever been this happy for just a normal gathering? Yes I do, just imagine how much you care for your friends all this years and seeing them stepping into success. There wont be any jealousy nor envy. You will just grin to yourself and tell yourself. Let work hard for our success and help each other along.

Unfortunately this year, there wont be any family reunion dinner. Which mean I wont be able to meet Jereld Girlfriend and Hui ting. I know someday there will alway be a day for to meet up.

Having able to meet much of the people I use to hang out with. I feel contended. If you ask me, is there anyone I would to meet? I would say yes definitely.

There is this girl who change me during the last 3 years. Shame on me that there isnt any communication at all ever since my grad show. I know I did something which betray what I wish for. I wont ask for much and I wont think of it because it just happen. Maybe I wont even get to see her anymore but it will keep motivate me.

If ever happen you get to read this post. Let meet up 8 years later. Haax...

Friday, February 12, 2010

New year 2010 Resolution

Hmmm.....Life in 2009 was seriously FML ( fuck my life ) Although it was much better after mid of the year. Experiencing alot of things and exposure in oversea. Hmm...by the way I`m scratching my head....haha


I expect to do better than before in year 2010. No assurance but something to keep to myself.

- I will be more careful especially working for anyone. Die die black and white!!! Lesson learn after a boss from agency is not paying me and is forcing me to go CASE* next week with 4 other victims.

- If dunno ask* I always keep quiet and then go home check myself. Sometime I just forget what I want to check.

- Spend more time with my family! I know going to National service is going eat away my time between family and friend.


I think overall that what I need to improve....yea!

I was watching Hi sweetheart by Raine Yang. There a sentence that make me wonder. 3yrs or 5 yrs or even 10 yrs I`m still looking for you* Do people at such society still exist? Maybe there are some out there like that. Well, I dunno....looking back at my past. My memory remind me of someone and how a relationship few months ago actually make me feel guilty. I remember clearly that even it take 10 years I`m willing to wait for it to exchange for a lifetime of happiness.

Sometime you just have no idea what have god plan for you tomorrow. It would be a disaster if you have no goal or dream in your life.

2019.....I will be antcipating for that year.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

One of the most touching drama before I go NS

This photo I printscreen. The reason is because when the girl refresh about the pass of their relationship and how it progress to it downfall is a fatal blow to her. I think my tears auto flow down like free flow sia...


Yesterday went to check out at http://www.mysoju.com/autumns-concerto/ due to it star rating. It turn out to be very interesting drama. In chinese, it`s name as xian yi zhan Xin Fu.

The storyline started out a rich family daughter enjoying everything she want till the day her father pass away in a car accident. From there, she struggle like a normal girl doing housechore and getting part time job to support herself.

And a self centered man who love to toy with girl feeling and taking them as part of the bet in the school. Unbeatable until he meet the girl who change his life.

The drama help to send many meaningful message about life. Especially the part that we should not give up ourselves nor the right to inference other people life totally.

Very touching and sad at time but an enjoyable time. Love the kid~~~!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Vietnam Trip Day1


Wei jie, Wei cong and me for this Vietnam trip to find some wife!!! =X


It`s good to have a girlfriend to send you off. Well, apparently I`m back to single again.
So we waiting patiently at the waiting lobby! Feel so excited about it!!!


So the plane fly high up in the sky and I grab the chance to snap Singapore from the plane!! Ahhh!! So nice!! =D




So so snap, all of us get to have some rest and.....
Finally, we can get to see vietnam in close view!









This is the hotel we book. Cheap and reasonable..






Sometime I still think, how did they identity the cable is meant for which one. Kinda confusing to me




I think you wont be able to see this in Singapore already. Pretty old fashion* I wonder did I say it in the right term.
So Wei cong bring us to eat sushi!!
Fresh*







Anyone know what does this sign mean?






















12am at changi airport and the Air Flight is 8am plus. ~_~||...thx to Wei cong idea. This is my first oversea trip with friend. Personally the memory are still fresh even thought it has been for 3 months already.

Well, I guess let the photo do the talking..this entry is for day1 only! =D